Wednesday, May 2, 2012

...: Part III


Breathing life once again....
Pieces of the past, new pieces of the potential future come forward bringing themselves in the present....
Learning from the fabulousness, love, those who have surrounded me and just as much if not more from  trips, falls, mistakes of the past that will shape the moments forward.  Feeling lucky, grateful to have the opportunity to be here and move forward.

“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.” – Lao Tzu




























Time to Return

Thursday, April 26, 2012

After a long deep pause

After a long deep pause...

Sitting semi-sheshin in the woods...

It is time to re emerge from the quiet reflection of my introverted self...

I've been preparing to "Open up my suitcase" and share many of the things I have been guarding while reflecting...

My friends: bring out the Champagne Glasses & Sky Diving Equipment let's collaborate and share once again.

Thank you Susan Cain for eloquently explaining "me" to the "whole" so I don't feel the need to uncomfortably stutter through why I am who I am... You rock and thanks for opening up your suitcase ;-)



Tuesday, April 24, 2012

When Fear Is Not An Option


If you knew you were covered in fresh steak and walking into a cage filled with lions....

If you knew your life would never be the same.. 

Would you step in the cage?

If you still had a heart beat when "it" was over...
If "it" was ever over..

Would you give it all away?
Would you take a stand when everyone is sitting down... and tells you not too?

When they tell you, "You need to be quiet, sit nicely, play the game, be happy with what you have"...What about your job, what about your life, what about your stuff... Or...

Self Preservation?

If you knew it was the right thing to do...

You stand...Because fear is NOT an option... You stand knowing that if nothing else (even you) is left when the dust has cleared... Not one thing... 

You and whatever "spirit" belonged to you did what was right...

The moral compass points me home...

My life was only worth living if it is an honorable one.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

War is Ugly...The On /Off Switch..Random thoughts

I'm trying to digest and understand a few things this morning one is :

Photos of soldiers w/ dead people.  Yep, I agree it's not a pretty sight.  Not something I want to see over breakfast..

BUT maybe we need to see it...

At the same time maybe the WORLD NEEDs to see equally how horrific the actions of  the  {Insert numerous countries here} atrocities are on a daily basis ...What leaders are capable of doing to their own people... Women, Children...Acid Burns, Mutilation, Rape of 6 year old girls, SLAVERY?....MAYBE then WE the People will understand the true cost all of this hate has to humanity.

We as a human race SHOULD be OUTRAGED... We claim to be "civilized" We claim to be enlightened yet we still treat each other as enemy predators.

Here are my random efforts to understand the "International Incident" that is now circulating with photos around the world....

While normal people have expressed outrage and find this practice 'grotesque, wrong, disturbing'  I would ask as humans: Who are we to cast the first stone from our glass houses?

"We the people" through our "elected representatives" (Which is supposed to be the case in America at least) have asked/allowed these young men and women to go KILL (YES KILL) other HUMANS on behalf and in the name of our country.  They are HUNTERS (A majority NOT highly trained ON/OFF Friend/Foe Kill Switch/ like our SOF teams)

This is their job.  This is what they train to do.

So you send them away from their families, kids, loved ones.  We have asked them to be the judge, jury and executioner of other HUMANS similar but usually speaking foreign tongues and wearing different types of clothing. (Just as their leaders have told them of you...) Confusing to a normal human mind to say the least.

Our Governments have deemed these other HUMANS to be a danger/menace to "our greater safety, health and well being" of OUR (supposedly) CIVILIZED society.  They send SOLDIERS to execute their strategy.


WAR IS UGLY


War is nasty, dirty, smelly disgusting It SUCKS the last of the HUMAN out of you (the one they have trained out of you).... Let's be honest here...You wonder why soldiers have such a high rate of PTSD, SUICIDE? Good grief it's not rocket science.....

It's NOT glamorous, fun or pretty. (Doesn't come with background music like in the movies)

So if ANYONE should be blamed for this disgrace it is ALL OF US.... Not some young soldier WE Trained and sent TO KILL people.  In essence these are hunting trophies.... (YUCK it curdles my blood to think that way... BUT it is the only way I can think of it) (Go where it has NOTHING to do with you being a HUMAN...Watch Humans skin Humans alive, sell them as easily as a goat, drag them through the streets (Like Mogadishu) and kill their own people with no conscience whatsoever)...

I'm not excusing it by any means... I'm only saying in my humble opinion WE NEED to take a long hard look at why we are expecting soldiers to exhibit super human psychology and "act appropriately" in such a completely inappropriate insane environment.

Until world leaders leave the safe confines of the "Waldorf Astoria" lifestyle and go spend some time "hunting" and equally being "hunted" by other HUMANS in a harsh environment...Please stop pretending that this doesn't happen on a daily basis globally... Do not make examples of a few individuals (when this is far from an isolated incidence) out to be evil and start throwing stones at glass houses.




Thursday, April 12, 2012

Time For Me To Fly...


When I was a kid, I would pretend I could spread my wings and fly (Like Isis or Wonder Woman) to places I've never been.  I was never content to watch it on television or read it in a book.  I wanted to do it ;)  I still want to just do it... I have so much on my "bucket list" still left to explore and share in my life.

Although my container is a bit older and worn, I'm still that same kid.... With a glimmer in my eye, a giggle in my heart and the curiosity of a cumulative population of kindergarteners in a small country. 

I've been in this sort of ...."holding pattern" for a while now.

Not of my own accord for a majority of it...Waiting for others to give me "permission" to take off and fly again.   But, in a sense that is of my own accord, because I listened.  (It was a really wise decision for the majority of it).

However, the thoughts in my head continually echo the words of wisdom from another curious individual whose "escapades" in books have inspired my thinking for years.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ~Mark Twain

So it's the 12th.... The variable inputs closed on the 1st (until this version has been thoroughly tested and ready for retooling) I gave myself until the 30th to plan.  Major execution begins sometime before or around then. I've already begun executing the smaller already well designed pieces.  It's the base jumping kind that still are in plan phase.  

Its really a relief to have an unfettered head and a completely open heart.  It's refreshing to freely be able to dedicate myself to the things that matter most to me in my life.  Life is good, I'm breathing, have all my fingers and toes, two healthy, happy exquisite Harrdegau creatures, amazing friends and an entire adventure ahead of me.... whatever it brings, I'm rolling with the changes ;)

I had totally forgotten (maybe repressed) an entire block of music from my life between the ages of 10-15 until couple of friends posted a few songs for me.  Kind of like Invictus this stuff means so many other things to me now than it did then.  Though, I am still haunted with memories of dancing around my friend Cindy's living room and getting busted by her mom for using the "Hi-Fi" turntable and blasting the speakers to Journey... LOL   Too much fun.




Last thought on that note.  I'm really really REALLY excited to see one of my oldest childhood friends soon. (Escapades to follow) She's one of those friends where we don't speak for eons because we have "real" lives... and we call and it is like no time has passed.  

I'll never forget walking off a plane in Miami... I'd been through an earthquake & a few other things and lost everything, she had been through 2 hurricanes (rode one out in a bathroom with her mom and somehow made it with only the bathroom & the roof above it still existing when the force stopped then moved back to Miami and had it all ripped away again...) both poor as crap college students and I finally made it (lots of hours waitressing, cleaning houses & studying)  to see her over spring break... and it was like we never left each others side.  We laughed, danced, stripped into and swam in the ocean at midnight and lived life large with nothing.  

Life is a journey and it is so much fun when you have awesome friends to share the ride with along the way.  It's time.... For me to fly.


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Twitter Unfollowed Me.... UH UH No I DIDNT!

Problem: 

Twitter keeps un following my tweeps! 

(The average user doesn't care about Ruby or the lack of SQL, so I'll post tech light and then follow up with the XLS comparison next post)

Quick fix:

1.  Apparently the bug does not affect your lists.  (I've tested this over the past week, I haven't had an issue with it yet)

A little about lists: 
You can put people on lists without following them.   
In the past when I've been placed in "Twitter Jail" not being able to follow anymore Tweeps (but found that diamond in the rough), I wanted to make sure I continued to follow.
I simply put them into a private list as a holding pattern and then follow when I am released from Twitter Jail.

Quick Fix Solution to this irritating problem:

Place all the Tweeples into lists as an "insurance policy".  Then you don't really "lose" and you have some way of tracking the losses. 

2.  I've started testing out different stuff to manage lists but my favorite thus far:  

www.socialbro.com

If you look at the below screen shot you will see the "recently unfollowed"

The dropdown box at the top gives you some awesome flexibility.



The various interfaces can be a bit busy for an average user but has some awesome functionality when you dig into it a bit.  I've had fun playing with the dashboard.

I usually update it once per day and see how wacked out Twitter is acting on that day.

The export and compare function for the more geek heavy solution is up next.  SocialBro has an export function.



So if you combine Number 1 and Number 2 you should have a pretty accurate comparison without going deep into the next solution.

Im sure that there are really smart people that have come up with something far more elegant than my immediate band aid little solution.  If so could you share :-)

Comment below if you think there is something else I need to try to for a good solution (I'm great at breaking stuff, testing it, etc.)

Invictus ~William Ernest Henley


Invictus



Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,

I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


~William Ernest Henley

Monday, March 26, 2012

Things that make you go Hmmm

Random Thoughts Going Through Susan's Grey Matter:
“If you must play, decide on three things at the start: the rules of the game, the stakes, and the quitting time” ~ Chinese Proverb


Clearly Communicating Rule One, Two and Three:  


Explaining the Rules (Rule One):


Date To Note: 28 April 2012 (Rule Three) 
Dear World:  
Please note April 28th=drop dead date. (Rule Three) 
No further consideration will be given to random variables post 1 April . (Rule One & Two)




Thank you, The Management 


Speak now or forever hold your peace. (Rule Two)


Mulligan Sequence On Boarding: Time To Create a New Ending.

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

I Miss My Neighbors: Part II

Im feeling nothing more than 140 today but I promised a few random pictures to a few people. 
The game with friends is:

Where in the world (Where's Waldo) is Susan (Carmen) San Diego Today?  














Sunday, March 18, 2012

Here Fishy Fishy! Explorations w Fish

The fish story inspiration: 


From Twitter:

Me: Wishing I was floating in the warm waters of an ocean..it's Where I do my best thinking.. Bathtub will have 2 do 4 2day..

Scott: I've never been to the ocean :\

ME: ?????? Never? How about great lakes or lake Michigan?

Scott: nope.

Me:  D*mn.....growing up land locked I watched Cousteau & knew it was a place I had to find ;) ! It was all I thought & more ;)

Then my tiny wheels in my head start spinning.... I start thinking about how I stumbled my way into the ocean.  Remembering how many hours I spent in the bathtub as a kid sniffing the Coppertone Bottle dreaming about what it must be like to be in the ocean actually looking at fish, swimming beside them, exploring the quiet beauty of the ocean.  With those dreams in my noggin I made it a long way. 

I dreamed of water.  We went to Florida many times when I was growing up, I swam across entire lakes as a kid on a dare, or for lifeguard qualification tests at Campfire Girl Camp.

I fished my fool head off.  But as anyone growing up in the MidWest knows...The water is not exactly crystal clear to hang with and observe the fish.

Fast Forward

 A lot of people attack the sea, I make love to it.
~Jacques Y. Cousteau


I finally, I end up on the West Coast.  San Francisco (I thought EVERYwhere in CA was warm, palm trees & etc.  oops minor mistake believing what little TV I watched)  

I had a minor adjustment to make... instead of crystal clear warm water, flip flops and a bikini...I ended up in a full wet suit, mits, booties and hood (learning very quickly that peeing in your wetsuit is an awesome thing when your lips are blue) LOL... 

I learned to sail something larger than a 24ft boat on Lake Michigan.  The bay is pretty unforgiving with tidal pulls that would throw you out to the Farallon Islands.  We boat camped next to Angel Island after sailing all day, BBQ in floating and hiking the island.... (Reminds me I'll have to find a picture I took after getting hoisted up the mast).

I would get up at 4 am to surf in Pacifica, Fort Point or various other places before work or school... Had a big brown "thing" (seal) surf next to me (nearly scared me half to death) I stumbled across my first whale (Unfortunately, it was beached near the range at Ft. Barry) 

BUT STILL NO FISH TO HANG WITH THAT I COULD SEE
Fast Forward

My sister decides to get married on a cruise.  Yippee ;-) 

The cruise is going from Miami to the Bahamas for 4 days with a stop at a private island on the way.

We arrive at the private cove, Its gorgeous sunny, 80, I have my bikini (screw the lotion the chit chat and the fluffy coconut umbrella drinks)!  I have my snorkel gear ( I'm really really REALLY excited)  ready to finally get into seriously tropical warm water (Ok surfing Baja Mexico: Rosarita, & Ensenada are warmer than Half Moon Bay but not tropical) for the first time in FOREVER!!!!

Picture and entire cruise ship worth of people laying on the beach working on their tans getting their mellow on and I'm full blast into the water. Giddy as can be.

So I put on my fins, mask and prepare to finally pretend that I'm finally hanging out with Jacques Cousteau....Stick my face in the water for like 45 seconds and see FISH! 

IM so completely excited, I pop my head up and yell: OMG there are FISH down there!  Hystarically laughing.. I AM so happy I can't contain my excitement!

The ENTIRE beach stopped and looked at me....(yep, I'm a little touched...H*ll I'll never see them again so who cares) and I laughed harder, I cried I was so happy to finally see FISH!

It was such a huge moment in my life to finally fulfil a simple childhood dream. 

I spent the rest of the day smiling, swimming with a happy smile in my heart.

I've hung out with many fish all over the globe since that moment.  Me staring at them, them staring at me.  

"Don’t give up. There are too many nay-sayers out there who will try to discourage you. Don’t listen to them. The only one who can make you give up is yourself."
~Sidney Sheldon~




Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Random Thoughts... Out Loud

Random fun thoughts:


If I ever wrote a book two of the fun titles I've come up with are:


Tales of an Accidental Intellectual 

(My friend SG says : Suuuuuuuuurrrrrreeeee "accidental" ....besides you're blonde you can't be an "intellectual"....duh :-P )


That thought has now morphed into: 


Adventures of an Insatiably Curious (Though Often Clueless) Undefinable, Eclectic Creature & Her Menagerie of Really Smart Fun Friends ;)




I think one of the most amusing things to come out of my discussions in #140 chars on Twitter with my "followers" 

Disclaimer:


(I still have NO clue why they follow me LOL, except for a few)

Is that in an effort to stimulate Peace and Kumbaya they DM me that they think I (yes me) should sign up for (get this) match.com etc... Needless to say I thank them for their initiative (while ROTFLMAO) and move along.

What THE H*LL would I even BEGIN to say on a site like E-Harmony, Match etc.... (OH the humor never ceases)... Fill in the blank...












Saturday, February 18, 2012

For My IC: Long Overdue


I need to take the time to thank all of my amazing Inner Circle for all your unconditional love, support and understanding.

It has been an intense year.  Thank you for listening to my humming bird on crack techno-political babble at light warp speed. 

Even though most of you didn't understand a damn thing I was saying...You did something that many didn't...You listened.  That simple...

Completely even keeled through the  chaotic cacophony of my completely made for movie situation I had been placed in, your support never wavered.  You stayed by my side listening when all I could do was breathe, and be silent, isolate and try to plan every permutation, combination possible.... 

I especially need to thank a few people for their complete presence:

G~ (you listened and gave me amazing advice and a place to lay my head that was safe)

K:  Giving me style and a fabulous laugh.

R: (It's been an amazingly long road since 1997 we have been on...thank you for all you have done and continue to do...especially my fluffy white therapist that sits by my side quietly because he knows I need love, and I don't think they have discovered a barking translator yet so he keeps good secrets)

RC:  You put up with me cause your wife does...LOL :D

P:  As your adopted dweller, I can't even begin to thank you and the family for being my sounding board, my surrogate parents, my rock and my favorite place to be during passover...you mean the world to me....up to the sky into the stars...(for G)

The "socialites" with PUBLIC people:  I can't tag you but thank you.

W:  Thanks for talking me out of the tree
G&M:  For listening and connecting me to wonderful people.


and the rest of the unmentionable crew.

First and foremost I need to thank: JG for holding my hand through all of this.  For letting the truth prevail, saving lives, money and giving me the right person to work with beyond a shadow of a doubt.  J, without you, I would either be road kill in the Jersey Flats, silent or who knows where....  Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Now the Trumpet of truth goes to M:  J, you positively picked the best person to write it... M, thank you for your time, persistence and amazing ability. Although I would have used much more strongly worded language.  You are amazing.  Thank you.

SG: We will not only survive, we will see, breath and rise with the Valkryies again.

WS, GC, JT.... Don't even know where to begin...


This is far from over, it is only the beginning....

I am one as you can see,

But close your eyes, go to sleep,

When you wake, surprise surprise,

It's not just one it's one plus three,

Because I am a starfish you see....

Cut my leg off and you'll find,

I will survive and be just fine.

Each and every one of you on my inner circle list have played a major role.  Not once did you EVER waiver.  This I will never forget.  I am like an elephant you see .....

Love to you all.....

I am thankful to be here for another day.

Friday, February 3, 2012

I Miss My Neighbors Pt 1


I havent been feeling very "wordy" or even like speaking in more than #140 characters this week.  

In leu of my usual banter, I thought perhaps I would post some interesting pictures from Susan's World.










Enjoy and embrace the diversity of this world....It is an amazing place and I havent even seen a fraction of it... More to follow....

Saturday, January 28, 2012

The beginning of change NYC to Guam 2 Jan 09

The beginning of change NYC to Guam

When I hit the ground from NYC on 2 January 09 after flying the kids back I entered my empty house and sat down and cried.

It was a very lonely place with out my tropical monkeys to keep me company.

I went to bed, woke up the next morning and sat back strategizing on how I could possibly get my entire house packed into 2 shipments to the U.A.E. and NYC and the yard sale stuff by the 15th of January.

Then the knock at my window came.  I went out and it was my friend J.

He had been begging me to do this great ocean swim to a cave for as long as I could remember. Until now, I could never go at lunch because I only had a half hour. The kids (who are amazing swimmers & snorkelers) could not have made the swim.

I grabbed my tennis shoes and goggles, put on my bikini, jumped into J's island boonie beater truck and headed to a hidden beach.

The waters were very (understatement) rough. (I knew there was a tropical storm headed in..even on an average day this isn't something exactly most "normal" people would ever do) We threw caution to the wind, (calculated risk...he did the math, crazy submariner nuke nutter) and set out to swim past the reef into the place where you can not see the bottom (pretty creepy but beautiful) into the Philippine Sea.  Out and around the tip of a tremendous rock to a place not many will ever see.

Behold the giant cave (GET THIS) WITH a rope swing in it. (Que Pirate music (Japanese Pirate Music...Nah...ok thats a stretch)) The trick to get to the swing was timing & climbing. There's also the small matter of the intake to small cave to the left. If you got caught in the wrong current you would get pulled into and stuck in the small cave getting smashed against the coral. (YoHoHo and a bottle of rum LOL good thing I don't drink rum)

J gave me explicit instructions on how to catch the current at the right time and my foot positioning once I got the spot in the cave to climb up.

Thank you J.

On a normal day I would have laughed at this as an easy challenge but still been cautious.  Today the waves were enormous. It was fabulous, freaking surfing without a surf board.

The only time I think I ever remember such a strong current (until last recently, before another hurricane on another coast) was when I was a white water rafting guide in college...After rafting ended, we used have the guy who drove the truck drop our kayaks w/ boogie boards bungied on top downstream.




Walk down the trail, stand on the rail and jump off a bridge (trying not to get busted) into the river, ride the current to our kayaks get to the rapids, to take boogie boards and go into the rapids and surf and crash..until it was almost dusk.  Then kayak the rest of the way back to the campground and sleep till the next day...Rinse, repeat...LOL At any rate....The cave...

J went in for the first go at the rock and I watched…He missed….He went in for another go when the lull came it.. He made it! RAWR Success!

So out of the safety of my floating in the open Philippine Sea I patiently waited for a lull and then went for it….getting bashed by waves and currents all the way…(I've been swimming, surfing, in the water my entire life, this was a challenge) I swam in, missed the pull into the small cave (whew) and made it to the face. Got my feet on the rock and went to pull up higher to climb onto the first ledge and a huge wave came in and pummeled me against the coral face.

I only cut my hands, elbow and knees in a couple of places so no big deal. But boy was I tired from the fight with the currents.  I might be a "little touched" according to some, but not full blown stupid.  So instead of going back in straight away, I swam back out into the open sea and rested for about 10 minutes.

I really love just hanging out looking at all the beauty and silence (well the roar of the surf but thats music to my ears) So I floated on my tummy and looked at fish (the beautiful fish...man do I miss that place) Thinking I am all alone in the sea...I spy the spear fishermen who appeared below my feet LOL!

One pops up next to me, and I say "Haifa"! How’s the fishing? It was really quite funny to have a conversation with a few guys with spears in the middle of the sea while I was hanging out with my tennis shoes on and bikini and goggles LOL….Neptune was watching out for me that day.

I waited for a lull in the waves (not much of a lull with the oncoming storm) and went at it full force.  Gave it everything I had.  Got into the flow, felt out the pull, drew down and kept out of the pull into the small cave and finally caught my feet on the rock. Another HUGE wave was coming in, I could feel it tugging at me, the pull out waiting for it to come in….I climbed faster than I have ever climbed the face of any rock in Utah, Idaho, California, Wyoming, Oregon, Washington... anywhere.

I made it up to the first ledge by the skin of my teeth, just before the wave hit. It was inching at me...teasing me...baiting me to draw me back into the sea. It actually came up to the first ledge and almost got me.

Thank you J for being so patient with me.  J threw his arm down from the second ledge just in time to give me my three points of contact on the face to fend off the wave and use the leverage of the force to propel my body up instead of out.  (Thank G_D for strong MAN arms)

So the waves were coming in harder, inching higher and higher. We kept climbing higher into this amazingly beautiful coral cave. Finally, at the top, I rested.  Laying back taking all of it in. Soaking in the peacefulness. It was amazing.  Looking at the washed up creatures in the pools of water.

J the manly adrenaline junkie wasted no time and just had to swing off the rope!  So I was lucky to just hang and observe.

The rope swing was an entirely different challenge.  I'm not afraid of heights, swinging, gravity or kerplunking into the open ocean.  That is the fun part.  Its the particular nature of the swing on this very blustery day that has me kerfluxed.

Instructions and observations after watching J's first swing: Keeping mental notes in my mind: HUGE jump to swing body way out,  but at same arching lower back and rotating hips swinging legs at same time to position body weight to keep force ensuring you curve around to the left. WAY Important: If you want to miss the big *ss piece of coral on the right and then get pulled into the smaller cave.

Being pummeled with coral and low probability of getting your somewhat sane (minutely bleeding body) out of here alive and floating over to the Philipines during a tropical storm...wasn't on my agenda if I could help it.

So crazy man J goes up to the very top of the cave, flings his big ole manly dude body into the air and makes it. So amazing, breathtaking really.

I however am still resting.  Realizing that after all of this....I have to have enough energy to swim all the way back to Tipalo beach where our towels are (like another hour swim at least in these waves LOL) (This of course is less than 12 hours after I got off of a 33 hour flight from NYC LOL)!

J climbs and swings 3 more times. The spear fisherman out in the distance are watching and I’m quite sure thinking we are lunatics. I get my energy back and am done looking at the beautiful blue starfish and small fish in the tidal pool and tell J I am ready to swing.

He once again patiently gives me instructions on how to swing out and around… I push my hardest off the rock and WWWOOOOOHOOOOOO what a blast! Hit the water and have my usual happy kid smile on!

We swim back through the strong currents to the beach slowly going down and holding our breath trying to be spear fishermen without spears LOL…enjoying the waves, the water, the sun, the fish and a great experience with a wonderful friend.

Thank you J, I am so happy we finally got to do that swim. Unfortunately due to my ear we weren't able to do it again before I left.  But someday I hope we make that swim again.  Perhaps not right before a humoungous storm (I think we should go kite surfing next to gov Guam building instead LOL).  So many things left to see, taste and feel in this world....

So back to reality: we went back to my house and immediately both of my neighbor friends saw my arrival popped into my driveway carport, M and L giving me a firm but nice scolding telling me it was time to get down to business and off we all went  into sort out my house….